The Fault in our Stars - Chapter 1

Long time no seeing! Since our teacher told us to read another book, I decided to read 'The Fault in our Stars' by John Green. Basically the book is about the love story of Hazel Grace Lancaster and Augustus Waters, but who doesn't know that? Everyone has either read the book or seen the trailer of the film. Honestly I'm way to excited for this movie, although I'll be crying like a baby in the end, cause we all know how this book ends. And if you don't let me tell you one thing: SPOILER ALERT!

So to start of we have so read the first chapter. Well I have to, since I don't have the slightest idea, if someone else is reading this so... Okay, since I've read this book already a couple of times (yes, I am a bad person, because I read books more than once) I'll have to introduce you to the main character of this story.

Hazel Grace Lancaster. Sixteen, Thyroid originally but with an impressive and long-settled satellite colony in her lungs. And she is doing okay. (if you didn't notice, I just quoted this, because otherwise I wouldn't have remembered her illness. Sure I know it's cancer, but I don't have the slightest idea what a thyroid is and I'm way to lazy to google it.)

Just in the first chapter there happens such a lot of stuff. Well, since depression is a side effect of dying, which Hazel knows she is going to, she has to attend a weekly support group, because her doctor told her to do. Which meant that teenagers and children met up in the basement of a church which was shaped like a cross and they were sitting in the literal heart of Jesus. (Kind of weird if you ask me.)
Back to the story; after arguing with her mum, that she doesn't want to go to the Support Group this particular Wednesday, if I remember correctly, because she wants to stay home and watch America's Next Topmodel.
Her mum ends up driving her to the church, where they met and so Hazel made her way into the building. There were two ways to get to the basement, which was either the stairs or the elevator. Although she has an oxygen tank she decides to take the first opportunity, because taking the elevator is some sort of last days activity.

When she arrives in the basement (gosh I am writing this word way to often) she gets herself some lemonade and notices a pretty hot boy, who was starring at her. Also known as Augustus Waters. After them having a stare battle, which Hazel wins (obviously), and Patrick's (the support group leader and only person over 18) speech about his balllessnes (yes, he had ball cancer), they start talking about their biggest fears and he asks Augustus about his biggest fear, which is oblivion.

After Hazel's quite amazing response, (which wanted to quote, but it was simply to much to write and I'm tired) they pray 'Living our best live today' and with that the meeting is over. Hazel's 'friend' Isaac (if you can call him her friend at that point) is off to see his girlfriend Monica, who is quite important at some point in this story.

Well, Augustus and Hazel begin to talk and he tells her that she looks beautiful. Like millennial Natalie Portman. Like V for Vendetta Natalie Portman and invites her over to his place to watch the movie. She considers it, but then Augustus pulls out a pack of cigarettes and she is fuming, because he survived cancer once (osteosarcoma, forgot to mention that) and he was planning to get it once again. But he explains to her that it was a metaphor, that he put the killing thing in between his teeth, but didn't give it the power to kill him.

At the end of the first chapter, Hazel tells her mum that she is going to watch V for Vendetta with Augustus and that she (her mum) should please record the episodes of ANTM that she is going to miss.

The perfect beginning of a love story, isn't it? Hazel and Augustus are my OTP. I know I said my OTP were Katniss and Gale, buuuuut I always have new OTPs. The only constant OTP in my life is Troyler, but who wouldn't want Tyler Oakley and Troye Sivan to be in a relationship. They are perfect for each other! Okay, enough of me talking about OTPs and all that stuff.

I hope you could understand what I was talking about, because actually I don't have any idea what I just wrote ;) just kidding, but honestly, if you don't get what I mean I am so sorry. Sometimes I just start rambling :)

Lots of Love
xxxxx
Jules :D

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December 26,1991 & December 30, 1991

"I don't know if you've ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that." - The Perks of Being a Wallflower/ Page 100

I'm usually the kind of blogger who is all funny and so on, but after reading those two letters I feel pretty sad actually.

Charlie gets home from his dad's family and remembers why his Aunt Helen moved in with them. That she was abused by a friend of the family when she was younger and nobody would believe her. How she began to drink a lot and do drugs. Until she reached the point, she decided to get help which she did.

I feel really sorry about that. There are such a lot of people out there and such bad things always happen to the good people. It's kind of sad that they get hurt for no proper reason. Or no reason at all...

Since Charlie was born on the 24th of December his aunt always gave him two presents unlike everyone else. So on the evening of the 24th he handed the car keys to his aunt and she left to buy him another present. But she didn't come back anymore.
A policeman came to their house and told them she died in a car accident. And the worst thing of all is that Charlie blames himself for her death, because if she'd bought him just one present like everyone else she would still be alive.

Charlie was seven when that happened so I think most of you can understand the way he felt or still feels. As a child you always about your part in a story. And most of the time it's the bad/worst part.

He also visits her grave and talked to her about his life.

I personally think that's a good idea, because eventhough they aren't there anymore physically, they'll always be in your heart, am I right?

Well I suppose I see you soon.
xxx Jules
(today no bad jokes about bacon)

December 23, 1991 & December 25,1991

"I think it would be great if sledding were always enough, but it isn't." - The Perks of Being a Wallflower/ Page 78

It's getting so christmasy :D one more week to go. Well actually 9 days but that's not that important (;

I have already all my presents at home and wrapped them today, but Charlie hasn't...

On the 23rd of December he bought his presents. Who buys them two days before Christmas?!

Well, he didn't know what to get his dad, so do I. I honestly have no idea what to get him. Let's just skip that part.

So he's going to his dad's parents' house for the holidays and he's upset like always, mostly cause Sam and Patrick didn't call him for his birthday (24rd of December).

Charlie, you have shitty best friends. If they forget about you birthday you should probably get some new ones.

Worse than forgetting about a birthday is giving them a bad present. Like a pair of socks. Wait. Patrick did that (;

I got my worst present about 3 years ago. I wished for a new camera and my mum wenr to the mall with me to buy it. I chose a nice one and my mum sent me to another story, so she could get it wrapped.
On Christmas Eve I opened that present and was like 'oh my god, a camera.'
I opened the box and... it was empty. I thought my mum was messing with me and I said to her "Mum, there is no camera inside."
She just laughed at me and replied "Sure there is.", thinking I've gone completly insane.
At the end we found out, that the shop attendent had forgotten to put the camera back in and wrapped the empty box.

WORST PRESENT EVER!!
Sooo... I think that's probably enough for today (;
Lots of love
xxxx jules

December 19, 1991 & December 21,1991

"The outside lights were on, and it was snowing, and it looked like magic. Like we were somewhere else. Like we were someplace better." - The Perks of Being

Hey guys ;) I know it's been some time, but I was ill this week and wasn't up to upload anything.

As you can see, even in the book Christmas is coming :)
So Charlie has delivered all his Secret Santa gifts to Patrick and he received a lot of... shit.
How would you feel, if you'd get socks. and everything else, you need for a suit.
I would be really pissed about that, but Charlie seems to like it.

Well not that much, but he still likes it and when he gets his last gift he is really happy about that. Let's have a guess what he got.... a suit. YAY! Everything I've ever wanted (sarcasm)

His Secret Santa is actually Patrick and from Sam and him, he got a typewriter, cause all big authors have on. Does that mean, I have to get one? Or not?

Wait, I'm just some girl, who is probably the worst blogger ever, cause she is writing total nonsense.

Back to the book, the only other thing worth mentioning is, that Sam kissed him, cause she wanted his first kiss to be with someone who loves him.

If you like him that much, why did you friend zone him? Gosh, girl get your stuff together.

Sooooo... That's it for today. Keep on eating bacon :)
xxx Jules

December 7, 1991 & December 11, 1991

"I hope it's the kind of second side that he can listen to whenever he drives alone and feel like hw belongs to something whenever he's sad." - The Perks of Being a Wallflower/Page 66

Since it's December it's also that very special time of the year in the book.

I have to say, I personally love Christmas with all my heart. It's just that everyone turns out to be either nice or completely stressed out by gift shopping, decoration etc.

I hope y'all know Secret Santa,cause that's Charlie is talking about in those letters. He has got Patrick, so for his first present he got him a mixtape wirh lots of "cool" songs on it.
I own that book for about 2 years now and I've never listened to that one special song, which always seema to apear. If any of you wouls like to listen to it, it's "Asleep" by The Smiths.

Let me know what you think about it (;

Charkie has got from his Secret Santa a pair of socks. So creative.

And you don't want to be rude, so you act all jolly and happy, like it's the best present you've ever recieved... Let me know what your worst present was (;

well, see yah fellows (:
xxxx Jules

November 12, 1991 & November 15, 1991

I just realized, that I'm literally the dummest person ever. I was looking through my blog entries, cause I couldn't remember when I stopped, like the dates of tthe letters. And I was like 'Oh, so the last one was November 7, 1991.'
Well, as you might have noticed it wasn't... I forgot to upload it ._.

I think I should just blogging in the evening, cause I get sooo damn random.

Weird thing is, I couldn't find any quotes to put in the beginning. I searched in every goddamn line for one, but nope. Not a single one there.

So back to the main topic. The bokk.Yaaay (please note the sarcasm)

So it's basically, that his brother is in college, as we all know and that he didn't call one single time. And about how pretty his mom was.

That's actually kind of nice (;

Since it's nearly midnight here and I did Christmas shopping all day long, that's it (;

See you guys sooooon (:
xxxx Jules

P.S.: did you know you can buy baconflavoured chocolate? O.o

A special blog for a special man

"We can change the world and make it a better place. It is in your hands to make a difference." - Nelson Mandela

At first I just want to say, sorry, I didn't upload anything yesterday, but I was just so tired that I didn't have any energy to do it.

As you might have already noticed, today the topic isn't going to be "The Perks of Being a Wallflower". Today it's all about Nelson Mandela, a great man who did everything for his country.
So if you don't want to read this, you can skip it and come back tomorrow.

I haven't heard about Mandela, till I was 14 or something like that. In one of our classes we watched the movie "Invictus" which is about him, staring Morgan Freeman.
I know, that's not a lot, but there is one thing that film thought me.

It's important to stand up for yourself and try your best to be the person you want to be. It doesn't matter what your enemies might have done to you, as long as you can forgive them.

We worry such a lot about what we should wear, about school or boyfriends/girlfriends, but we forget the main reason, what life is about. It's about helping each other and loving you friends, family and even the strangers on the street as much as you can.

We spend such a lot of time, hating on someone and most of the time we can't even remember why we do. We should spend that time with the family or with friends, cause nobody know how long this bonds might last.

What Nelson Mandela told me, was to keep believing in myself and that even after the biggest storm, the sun will always shine.

All my best wishes to his family, his friends, his supporters.